I'm currently massively obsessed with the song Airplanes by: BOB ft Haley Williams, and Eminem. (: Part II of course.

So, my mother is currently being such a cunt I'm about ready to punch her in the face. If she get's drunk tonight and picks a fight with me; I'm gunna. Fucker. Teach her. -_-;

Nothing I ever do is fucking good enough around here. I cleaned my room, the kitchen and the living room and she was bitching because it "wasn't how it was supposed to be cleaned". WTF?! Why can't she just be happy that I decided to fucking do something to help out since she's been bitching that no one around here does anything? I'm mean, come on. I didn't throw anything away and I didn't move anything to any obscure place; why does it matter? She's just finding reasons to make me want to slit my throat. Gr...

I finished my soccer season yesterday; we lost our first District game, which means we don't advance, so we're done. We finished the season 0-18. Fucking lovely, eh? My team (a fucking Varsity team, to say the least) didn't win a SINGLE GAME. WTF is that? We suck; lol.

But on the plus side, I now get to start training for X-country! Summer miles started yesterday; I'll probably go for a run sometime today. (: The end of my soccer season also means I can start fasting again; yessss! I weighed in this morning at 120.6 lbs. So, let the games begin.

Intake:
Dove chocolate=> 320 cals

Outtake:
Nothing so far. ;P
Run later probably.

But stay strong chicas. I'm baaaaack!(:
Anyone want to have a competition to see who can loose the most by the end of June?
Message me and let me know if you do! (Or comment; that works too!)

Stay strong, Be beautiful!
xoxo

If She wanted to play the entire field by herself; She would've asked the entirety of the rest of the team to sit the bench. She didn't; did She? No. Then get off your asses and help out! Sprint for God's sake! She was so frustrated She just sat bench for the final remaining minutes of the game. Was this uncalled for? Most likely, but it was needed. She has another game tomorrow. Who decided that it was okay to play the 3 strongest teams all in one week? Well, that person is a fool, quite frankly. The team's moral is going to be in the dust after the week is out; great idea. The game from earlier this evening was eventually lost; 11-0. Cute, eh?



Today was slightly less than decent today. Everyone was morning Tanya's death; she was in Her grade. She never expected such a kind and selfless person as Tanya to go. Why couldn't it be someone else? Why her? She can't bear to look at her ex-lover; he's far too broken. It hurts so much to see him hurt. Why did anyone have to go at all? There was already a death earlier this year...why another? Why this community? It leaves Her with only one question; who's next? Who's family is going to suffer; friends going to cry? Isn't it hard enough to lose one? Why God? Why?



She's never been this alone before...this tired. She's never wanted to be without him like this before. She loves him; She knows She does..but then...Why feel this way? Why want everything to fall apart? Is this Her mind? Or something much more powerful? Some incredible outside force? What happens when it's not an "if" but an "is"? What happens then? She's at a loss; isn't everyone? She needs him, but loathes the way he makes Her feel. What can she do? Talking never works with him...Is giving up the answer? She doesn't know...as much as She wishes She did. She can't wrap her mind around what's happening here. He promises forever, but the doubt is there; cold and unreassuringly lurking. Why can't love be easier than this?



xoxo,
T-FTW

P.S:
Total intake: 798 cals